I know of no other way to put this. I’m afraid our relationship has come to an end. I know this will be hard for the both of us but it is necessary. We’ve had some good times over the years and I cannot easily forget the romantic notions those memories will conjure at some unexpected reminder in the future. You certainly have an idealized appeal that is hard to ignore.
Wizards and hobbits, writers, artists, and musicians, soldiers, fishermen, scientists, and philosophers have all popularized your public image. I will not pretend that I won’t miss you. I refuse to make myself a hypocrite simply to save my ego. I don't think I'm better than you and I will not try to convince others that I didn’t love you just as you were. I knew going into this that you were flawed, dangerous, addictive, and cruel...but that didn't stop me. You made me feel safe. You calmed my troubled mind. You eased my stress at the end of a busy day.
Or so I thought. I realize now that this is truly a toxic relationship and I can no longer ignore the detrimental effect it is having on my health. I find it hard to breathe. It’s as if I’m being suffocated...slowly...especially when I engage in anything strenuous. I have little desire (or much ability) to sing anymore and it’s been an equally long time since I have dared to smile at anyone. I hope you understand that I am not simply attempting to point fingers here. I fully accept the responsibility of my own actions.
It’s not just you. It’s me. I think I’ve just grown past this. It’s time for me to move on. I hope you understand. I’ve included a photo of us together with this letter. I hope it comforts you and reminds you of happier and more carefree times.
Please respect my feelings and do not attempt to contact me. My decision is final. My resolve is firm.
Sincerely,
Jerry
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